Diary Of A Dope-Ass Spartan

Sometimes life happens, things go wrong and you just feel like you're suffocating, you don't know where to go or who to turn to. You think if you go to your friends they'll judge you and you don't want to get on your knees and talk to the big guy up there because you don't know if he'll keep forgiving you, stupid as it may sound. Everything happens for a reason I always say but what if we have the power to stop some of the things that happen, what if we have the power to stop ourselves from having that kind of regret. Everything does happen for a reason and God does not give us obstacles we cannot handle. Regret is a wasted emotion, you can't take back your mistake so might as well make the best of it. I think we should all look on the bright side, there is always a light at the end of every dark tunnel. Praying helps and if it's not okay then it's not the end! God will never abandon you in your hour of need, when that little voice in your hea...

I know I've talked about this before but I don't care I will keep talking till it stops. This is just a rant so stay with me aha. So someone called me ugly and fat today and I'm not going to lie if it was back in the day I would probably have been offended. Now it just makes me angry. It's people like you that make me ashamed of being a woman sometimes. I mean I'm nineteen and you're twenty-three what business do you have comparing us two? You might be older but I am probably a better person than you will ever be. Please help me understand here, what is your definition of pretty? Did calling me ugly make you any prettier? Did calling me fat make you any skinnier? After saying that to me how did it make you feel? Are you happy with yourself now? I feel nothing but sadness for people like you. I mean just because someone does not fit a certain image of what they should be in your mind does not mean they should be that image. We all have different definitions...

Sometimes i miss my girls but God they can be annoying at times. We skype every week and half the time the conversations are about their boyfriends. Now i'm not that bitter single friend that I'm sure we all have but it just gets annoying. I mention how bored i get when they start yapping about their guys, they get on my case about finding the right one. I have one hang out spot in this city, I'm there every weekend so I'm sure I won't be finding my Mr right soon, not that I want to. Anyway the reason for this post. I was talking to my friends a while ago and again the topic about boys came up, as usual I had to tell them to just shut the fudge up!!(there really isn't any nicer way to put it). If it's not setting me up on dates it's annoying me about being more social and finding that one guy. I say why settle for one when I can have ten you know? Nah I'm kidding. I guess I just want them to understand that I am perfectly fine being alone, I lik...